Selfless to selfful

Journal entry from April 2, 2018: I just realized I've been lacking a self. Ever since my Bible translator self, my missionary self, my Christian self, my linguist self, and my cosmologist self all died, I've been without a self! The Knowing I that I AM needs a self to see itself. Without the mirror …

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Low on fuel

I am a recovering (usually benign) narcissist. In order to keep going, narcissists need fuel. The fuel (aka 'supply') comes in the form of neurochemical highs induced by the ways others interact with the narcissist. These can be positive reactions as when the narcissist is attended to, admired, and adulated. Or they can be negative …

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