Elite

Since my teenage years, I've occasionally entertained fantasies of being part of an elite group of one sort or another. These fantasies originated, I think, in an unmet need to be loved and accepted as ordinary. To compensate for this insecurity, I learned to customize various short-lived personae built on being extraordinary, unique, different...special. "If …

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‘Special’ forces

July 11, 2011: While watching a movie last night, my desire to be in the special forces got reawakened. I don't want to kill for any government but instead give life for the government of God, doing so in the manner of the elite teams: going behind enemy lines before conventional forces arrive being highly …

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