Christlikeness

October 12, 2018: I am starting to see the symbiotic (and sympathogenic) relationship between a religion and the psychologies of its adherents. It's interesting that the more I learn about narcissism, the more narcissistic elements I see in Christianity. Narcissism may emerge as a defense strategy in a person when a harshly judgemental, conditionally-approving SUPEREGO …

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Christ and Narcissus

July 13, 2018 (Tallahassee): Yesterday I watched YouTube videos about emotional abuse and realized how abused I've been and how abusive I've been. Truly, messed up people mess up people. The topic of narcissism especially hit home: a narcissistic person is someone who mortally craves - and develops sophisticated means of acquiring - the approval, …

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Human manifesto

March 13, 2017 (Nairobi): The question has come up recently as to whether I am still a Christian or not. Well, if being a 'Christian' means that I believe that: Jesus Christ was the sole and final human embodiment of God, born of a virgin, who lived divinely without sin or error of any kind, …

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Thrice-born

March 10, 2017 (Nairobi): Recently, in trying to settle in my own mind whether I am still a 'Christian' or not, what I realized is that I don't want to be labeled as anything essentially, because a label is just a temporary stopover in the course of evolution. The thing I want to be, the …

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Human hypercluster

"Human beings, as other organisms at higher rungs of biological evolution, are hyperclusters of wave interference patterns, oscillating across a broad range of frequencies." - Ervin Laszlo January 26, 2017 (Nairobi): In December I read a mind-blowing book by Ervin Laszlo (and others) called What is Reality?: The New Map of Cosmos, Consciousness, and Existence. …

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Red tape fury

October 30, 2016 (Kampala): Stephen Buehner writes in his book Ensouling Language how good writers need to know what makes them furious in this world and use that power in their writing. Over the course of this week I've realized one of mine: I am infuriated that something as good and pleasurable as human sexuality …

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Spark of recognition

February 2, 2016 (Timu): I woke up before 3:00 a.m. this morning, and thoughts flooded my mind. My body is tired, my gut wracked with pain. I feel like shit. One of the things that came to mind was what I want to say to my three old men - Iuda, Gabriel, and Simon - …

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Dragonseed

"But," said Lewis, "myths are lies, even though lies breathed through silver." "No," said Tolkien, "they are not." An excerpt from J.R.R. Tolkien's poem "Mythopoeia": The heart of man is not compound of lies, but draws some wisdom from the only Wise, and still recalls Him. Though now long estranged, Man is not wholly lost nor …

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Human connection

Something magical happens when two human beings truly meet. Even though we run into people all the time, the quality of the meetings differs greatly. The spiritual teacher, Ram Dass, in a talk I listened to, described the special connection that happens when two kindred spirits meet. These are the moments of falling in love, …

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Sahara

On December 14, 2014, I defended my doctoral dissertation in Leiden, Netherlands. That morning, before going to face the 'opposition' committee, I wrote out some reflections on the perspective I gained while soaring at 35,000 feet over the Sahara Desert. Flying over the Sahara has long held a very special place in my heart. The …

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