Cultivating perfection

September 3, 2016 (Kampala): It's been a year since I've even thought about starting a school in Ikland. But for some reason on this morning, after waking up miserably at 5:00, the vision came back to me. It was sparked by what I read from David Fideler this morning, that "humanity has a special role …

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Choosing the unchosen

August 18, 2016 (Kampala): Yesterday I was paralyzed by our ambiguity. I spent much of the day just working in the kitchen and watching TV documentaries. But toward late afternoon, I detected a subtle shift within me. I began to operate as if attending FSU this fall is out of the question and we are …

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Life is absurd

August 16, 2016 (Kampala): At church on Sunday, we had as a guest speaker the American Bob Kilpatrick, author of the song "In my life, Lord, be glorifed." He wove short admonitions between various songs he led us in. One thing he reminded us of was that 'life is absurd.' I think I interpret that …

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Perspicacity in pain

The following journal entry from Uganda on June 26, 2016, recounts an episode I had of severe gut pain. In retrospect, the experience makes three things clear: 1) after years of high chronic stress, my immune system was weak and my resultant bouts of Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) were getting more frequent and more severe, …

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African maiden

December 24, 2014, in Uganda: Over the last week, I've dreamed about N at least 4-5 times. N is the Kiroba (Tanzanian) girl I had a major crush on from 1996-1997. I wonder if my dreams are merely the archetypal fantasies of union with the Cosmic Feminine, of which my feelings for N were my …

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Brotherhood

June 28, 2015: While the women went to church, A and I hiked down toward the Kenya escarpment, to that outcropping with a stunning view of the Rift Valley. It was so wonderful just to break free from domestic life for a couple of hours with another guy. On the way, some Ik in their …

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Sahara

On December 14, 2014, I defended my doctoral dissertation in Leiden, Netherlands. That morning, before going to face the 'opposition' committee, I wrote out some reflections on the perspective I gained while soaring at 35,000 feet over the Sahara Desert. Flying over the Sahara has long held a very special place in my heart. The …

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Feathered friends

At a time in which human relationships were often so overwhelming, I took solace in communing with other members of the local ecosystem. This journal entry describes one special experience where I got to enjoy some of my favorite feathered friends. *The photos are not my own. August 7, 2011: Two mornings ago, when I …

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Bone collectors

When one is inculcated with a biblical worldview, the first few chapters of Genesis provide the bedrock foundation. Genesis 1 describes the beginning of Creation, and then all of cosmic history unfolds between there and the last chapter of Revelation. When the biblical worldview was no longer working for me, I felt the need to …

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Earthy Easter II

April 11, 2009: Among the many incongruities of our lives here in Uganda is the one of spending major Christian holy days in wildlife parks. Christianity is a cultural thing in the sense of involving language, customs, rituals, and traditions based in history and literature, something utterly absent in the world of prehistoric hominids. As …

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