No breastfast

A journal entry from February 8, 2016, recounting our move out of Ikland: Thursday morning, February 5, I intended to have one last glorious quiet time in pristine Timu nature. But just after sitting down on my boulder, G padded up behind me and sat down beside me. My heart sank. Without asking, he picked …

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Spark of recognition

February 2, 2016 (Timu): I woke up before 3:00 a.m. this morning, and thoughts flooded my mind. My body is tired, my gut wracked with pain. I feel like shit. One of the things that came to mind was what I want to say to my three old men - Iuda, Gabriel, and Simon - …

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Wishful thinking

People with narcissistic tendencies often have what's called a poor 'reality test'. A reality test is the ability to accurately assess actual entities and events outside one's private inner world. In well-adjusted individuals, this testing is done continuously as a way to ensure that our  inner world of experience and outer environment are calibrated and …

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The Listener

January 27, 2016 (Timu): Yesterday was quite a day. My dictionary guys came, and we had a good session. I got some lovely new words: technical, culturally highly significant, and likely very ancient. For example, /b'ej'ékù-/, 'white ants that fly late in the season', or /wàsò-/, 'the stick that's bent over as the spring in …

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Christ the Lord

In his book, Ethics, the late Dietrich Bonhoeffer outlines a revolutionary theological paradigm that challenges many of the dichotomies perpetuated by traditional Christian teachings. Two of these dichotomies - Good versus Evil and God's World versus Satan's World - he neatly dismantles through page after page of relentless logic. In the following few journal entries, …

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In quantum love

January 21, 2016 (Kampala): Last night we had dinner at Cafe Roma's with G and her friend B. At one point, B was telling us about the Christian books she and G read together. Then she self-consciously and insecurely made the caveat that even though these books aren't 'Bible studies', they are still 'based on …

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True philosopher

January 17, 2016 (Kampala): Last night while Amber worked on the girls' hair, I read an article by a Peter Eastman in London called "The Perpetual Emptiness of Academic Philosophy" (2014). He warns that anyone looking for answers to life's questions will be sorely disappointed if they turn to the academic discipline of philosophy. He …

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Practice for dying

New Year's Eve 2015, we as a family felt there was in impending change on the horizon. We didn't realize how soon it would come. As I related in my post called "Trauma," we had had an armed robbery with gunfire seven years earlier. Amber and I had both recovered from that fairly well, well …

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