July 26, 2015, in Dar es Salaam, Tanzania:
I’m frustrated right now reading a theological book. It’s interesting and insightful…but it’s mostly an exegesis of other texts, a dialogue with other authors. That’s all well and good, if you like shuffling around endlessly the ideas of men and women.
But I’m frustrated because by exegeting TEXTS, we are still only operating at a second-order level. It’s unsatisfying to me. What I want…what I am dying for, is exegesis of the WORLD, within and without. I don’t want a rehashing of what people have said about what other people have said about the world, or even what people have said about the world. What I want is to hear the WORLD speak anew, afresh, with a human as its spokesperson.
Is this possible?
Is what I am suggesting the transcendence of human language?
I feel that as a species we are trapped in a solipsistic bubble that we can’t break out of. There is endless feedback in the collective microphone. We jabber on ceaselessly about this and that, all the while failing to really say anything.
I don’t want to know what Basil or Augustine said about Creation. Or what they say the Scriptures say about Creation. Or even what the Scriptures say about Creation.
No. What I want is first to KNOW existentially what creation is, and to then say something phenomenologically revealing about my experience.
So, I’m getting to the point where I decide largely to be done with reading that merely increases textually-mediated factual knowledge, and to move to reading/writing that stirs the soul. But I think perhaps I need to be trained as a phenomenologist – a scientist of truth – before I move on from all the rest and devote my remaining days to the LOGOS – God Incarnate.
My life will be a living experiment in whether we can begin to transcend some of our collective limitations…and truly KNOW.