Bone collectors

When one is inculcated with a biblical worldview, the first few chapters of Genesis provide the bedrock foundation. Genesis 1 describes the beginning of Creation, and then all of cosmic history unfolds between there and the last chapter of Revelation. When the biblical worldview was no longer working for me, I felt the need to …

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Low on fuel

I am a recovering (usually benign) narcissist. In order to keep going, narcissists need fuel. The fuel (aka 'supply') comes in the form of neurochemical highs induced by the ways others interact with the narcissist. These can be positive reactions as when the narcissist is attended to, admired, and adulated. Or they can be negative …

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Bible stripped bare

February 8, 2010: After church this morning, I am once again terribly frustrated over my ambivalence about the Bible. It is wedged like a thorn in my psyche. As much as I want to be rid of it, my whole life seems oriented around it: my Christian sub-culture, my career, and the reigning epistemic foundation …

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Names for mysteries

January 31, 2010 Friday night I was sitting on the pot imagining some string of overly academic writing. The word 'ostensibly' popped up. I felt that the word fit the meaning and/or the meaning arose because the word was known to me. Whichever the case, it struck me that even though I don't know exactly …

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Mind-job

Fundamentalist Christianity exhibits certain psychological dynamics that in other arenas of life are considered dysfunctional or even pathological. Successful evangelism entails convincing someone that a) there is something innately and inescapably wrong with them and b) that there is a single way to make right this essential wrongness. It's a matter of creating the problem …

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God-in-me

Over the last decade, as the felt sense of a god 'out there' steadily diminished, the sense of a god 'in here' - in me - grew. I did a lot of praying to empty skies and crying out to mute walls. Gradually an awareness dawned on me that whoever/whatever God is, within my own …

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Earthy Easter II

April 11, 2009: Among the many incongruities of our lives here in Uganda is the one of spending major Christian holy days in wildlife parks. Christianity is a cultural thing in the sense of involving language, customs, rituals, and traditions based in history and literature, something utterly absent in the world of prehistoric hominids. As …

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Sacred textuality

Heraclitus is my patron Greek philosopher. One of his teachings was that the cosmos is a river in which the twin currents of love and strife roil in ceaseless change. If he is correct - that the essential nature of the universe is change - that implies that changelessness, permanence, and stability are functions of …

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Lost in translation

During my brief stint in seminary in 2006, I learned things that convinced me that belief in the 'inerrancy' and 'verbal inspiration' of the Bible was no longer tenable. As I've already described, this change in my outlook wreaked havoc on my spiritual and vocational life. It called into question not only my identity as …

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