Selfless to selfful

Journal entry from April 2, 2018: I just realized I've been lacking a self. Ever since my Bible translator self, my missionary self, my Christian self, my linguist self, and my cosmologist self all died, I've been without a self! The Knowing I that I AM needs a self to see itself. Without the mirror …

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Christlikeness

October 12, 2018: I am starting to see the symbiotic (and sympathogenic) relationship between a religion and the psychologies of its adherents. It's interesting that the more I learn about narcissism, the more narcissistic elements I see in Christianity. Narcissism may emerge as a defense strategy in a person when a harshly judgemental, conditionally-approving SUPEREGO …

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Christ and Narcissus

July 13, 2018 (Tallahassee): Yesterday I watched YouTube videos about emotional abuse and realized how abused I've been and how abusive I've been. Truly, messed up people mess up people. The topic of narcissism especially hit home: a narcissistic person is someone who mortally craves - and develops sophisticated means of acquiring - the approval, …

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Universal acid

October 14, 2017 (Tallahassee): Last Sunday, while Amber was at work, I took the girls to church. I think I did it for their sake and because it's free babysitting. I won't do that again, though...After the sermon, we had Communion. The thought crossed my mind as to whether I should participate. But I went …

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Shedding symbologies

August 23, 2017 (Tallahassee): Experience is Reality reflected in human consciousness. Before humans, Reality was Reality, but pre-consciously reflected in pre-human cognition. Experience is the fountainhead supplying our human propensity to make myths and worlds: symbolic interpretations of experience. Experience is universal, while interpretations of it are not. If we took one mentally healthy person …

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A knowing innocence

July 31, 2017 (New Orleans): Yesterday, on our 12th wedding anniversary, Amber and I attended Mass at St. Louis' Cathedral, the oldest in North America (1718). It is a beautiful building, and the service was touching. The message was about a sensitive and obedient heart being the essence of the gospel - hearing and responding …

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Quarks to consciousness

June 29, 2017 (Tallahassee): Lloyd Geering writes: "The very great difference...between the emerging global world and the many traditional worlds it is undermining and threatening to supersede is that they were meaningful worlds and the global world is not, or at least not yet...All the worlds which humans had constructed prior to modernity had been …

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Naked truth

May 31, 2017 (Tallahassee): Aldous Huxley: "To such [dim] minds Reality, whether material, psychic or spiritual, presents itself as it is darkened, tinged and refracted by the medium of their own individual natures. But in those who are pure in heart and poor in spirit there is no distortion of Reality, because there is no …

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Led by temptation

April 9, 2017 (Nairobi): What is MEANING? What happens when a word, an event, a life, means? Meaning arises from the relation between one holonic (part-whole) unit to one or more others. And meaning is made possible by syntropy, LOVE, the cohesive force that connects things into assemblies in the first place. A word has …

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Wholly fractured

April 9, 2017 (Nairobi): Everything is fractal, everything holarchical. Fractality is holarchy. Holarchy is fractality. Molecular, chemical, cellular, neural, linguistic, and social structures are fractal and holarchical. Like is drawn to like, or repels like. Like is drawn to unlike, or attracts unlike...and new, more complex arrangements emerge. Emergence is the playful, spontaneous, even flirtatious …

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